*you're my beautiful rescue. will you always be my fantasy? Never comin' true, just a picture of my ideal you.

I gazed out of my window. I saw a beautiful sunset.

I am reminded of so many wonderful things in life --- love, friendship, trust, smiles, peace, joy...

I don't know why, but it's just amazing how my life has encountered treasures that I can't find. They find me instead. I really enjoy having all these treasures, but I realise that some of them have short life spans while some others have longer ones. There's nothing more I want now than to re-experience the kind of love I had, the friends I had and could have made, the joy and smiles that we have shared throughout. I want a regeneration of these feelings.

No one could have thought how foolish I was to have fallen into a pithole. It wasn't too deep, but I know I had hurt myself. Maybe, I shouldn't have started all these. Maybe, I should have been braver enough. I wish I had the courage, the courage to take risks without being afraid of embaressment.