Tonight I've Fallen & I Can't Get Up
*I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
love FM Static's "Tonight"
can't get enough of it(:
So anw, as life treads on and on, it gets tougher day by day, hour by hour and minute by minute. I wonder how it actually will be after having sat for the Big As and before you know it, you'll be stoning half the time. My mind's in a state where the right things aren't preoccupying my brain's storage space. I'm consumed and well, a lil' overwhelmed by some issues. I just can't get you to see why I am doing everything in whatever fashion I want; it's all because of YOU! But in anycase, I don't know if I should be worried about it at all, whether or not you reply my calls/sms/IM, whatever the case, I don't know if it's important at all. I'm just holding on to hope and trying damn hard to deceive myself. I keep telling myself that my number one priority is to work hard and give my BEST shot during CTs/Mid-Years/Big As, but everytime, you pop up like a daisy in my mind. I can't seem to forget and put you aside during this period. WHYYY?! I don't know how come it's like damn hard for me to get over you and just get my focus right. I don't know why this weird feeling just consumes me and I feel so... I can't describe it. Actually, I don't know how I feel. Indeed, this pain is just too real. Anyhow, I think I should just put the blame on you, you caused me to lose my focus, yet again, this is really really really unfair to you and it pains me to have said it & I'm sorry):
cheers&love
