sometimes, i guess i just need to learn to walk away. what my eyes see, makes me feel pain within. unexplainable. i thought my mind would learn to drift away from reality, but no, it's not working. maybe Fate is toying with my feelings. maybe it's just not meant to be. maybe it's my destiny. maybe i'm tested by God to learn to be braver and stronger rather than being dependent. maybe it's supposed to be just the way it is.

sometimes, i'm envious of those who are given opportunities. it makes me wonder why ain't i given a chance. some do not even cherish such chances, and they go wasted. why. i wonder. it takes 2 hands to clap, and there must be give and take. so what if i know the theory but i'm not given a challenge to face. why.

sometimes, things like these are hard to fathom. i wonder why. can't things be made simpler in life. i guess not. at this stage in my life, i feel like i've lost in this game. maybe i'll lead a solitary life all throughout the days that i am able to breathe. maybe i'll pass on, alone. maybe this is part of my life, maybe i should just accept it. accept it.

i wonder if better days lie ahead of me. I can only wonder. Everything you see now, is just a facade.