well, perhaps sometimes, somethings, you never know when they unexpectedly spring up on you. queer things, queer people. it's kind of scary actually. really. I'm afraid now. I hate it that you think life seems quite all right then one night you realize, hell no. what is this world coming to! why why & why. I can't seem to understand this world. I can't seem to understand myself.

when I read amanda's wordpress, I was just in awe of her. like the 'I wish I was her' feeling. goodness, her brains, thought processes, vocabulary bank. like she stole all the jewels from a jewelery shop! admiration. I really really want to write and think like her (tho sometimes I feel like she also doesn't give a hoot about things in this world).**there's something seriously wrong with ntu students. like they are intelligent creatures really, but they haven't got a heart. they are brutally blunt and that what makes them dumb. we are all entitled to our own opinions aren't we?

well anw, I can't be bothered anymore with people like that; people who want the whole wide world to hate them. that's terribly, utterly _________. I can't find a suitable adjective to fill in the gap (as yet). but insane people like that, I pity them. I feel so damn sorry for the plight their in. whether they enjoy it or not, these people really, they have NO LIFE. so much for loneliness = happiness and freedom. well yeah, to some degree. but I'm strongly for the fact that in this world, despite whatever tragic people or events there are, hope lingers to give LIFE to happy, lovable people like the rest of us. I am not discriminating. Just making a clear distinction between sunshine and rain clouds.