thecolouredstage

Tuesday, July 29, 2008
10:11 PM

Shadows of Lesser Nights
*light falls, beauty falls, life crumbles, before you. Turn around, and you will find, the fragments that make life whole.

In Saigon, the roads filled with so many stories to tell, that has yet to be known, to be heard.

The rays from the sun, how bright they shine, they stream into my life, sticking a gleam to this distorted window, where the complexities of life show and tell people of many things that not everyone may know.

I guess life's just the way it is. There are sometimes wonders that pop out unexpectedly but there are also times where things don't go the way you want them to. Everything goes wrong, the way that makes one feel horrid, feel so bad and uncomfortable, things that make me cry. The greater mysteries of life have yet to reveal themselves, they show up at opportune times, but that's not always the case either. Life's a win-lose situation;you gain something by losing another. That's what I call the "mechanism of life". I wish I could be like Newton, coming up with my own theories that are logical, but sadly, mine are seemingly illogical. How devastating.

You all will just be a part of my memories. What you do in the present will affect the kind of respect you all deserve from me. "Do unto others what you want others do to you" This is what I firmly believe in. If you give me the cold treatment, you think I would be that kind to be warm and welcoming towards you? FAT CHANCE. Fine, now go ahead if you wanna leave me alone. GOGOGO. I don't care no more(but at least I think I still do). In any case, friends play a major role in determining whether we all will make it across this humongous wall, an obstacle that we are all facing and where much preparation is required. I'm trying my best to be the kind of friend I want to be;someone who cares, who helps, who lends a listening ear, someone who takes initiative, someone who tries her best to help each other out in time of need. I just want to be who I am and no one, no one's gonna influence me in a bad way that corrupts my character and more importantly, my beliefs.

Defining who you are. Who are we really to give the cold shoulder to someone for no rhyme or reason? Who are we to disrespect someone of lower/higher authority than us? Who are we to do all of these things we've been constantly doing? Who are we actually? I, for one, believe that our behaviour, opur actions, define who we truly are. Our beliefs shape our character, our character shapes the perception others may form of us.

Well, all I cn sya now is that, in the world, everyone may be taken for granted. Many people are being exploited and taken advantaged of and in return what do they get? NOTHINGGG. What's this? Don't you think it's unfair? Anyhow, I still think that the good will eventually emerge victorious and success ultimately belongs to the MOST perservering and not to people who aren't serious in anything they do. To them, a sloppy piece of work is a piece of what they call "achievement". Anyhow, for myself, I've set high standards for myself. I aspire to reach them. I hope I will reach them and I believe I can and I will.

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Sunday, July 27, 2008
5:01 AM

When You Don't Have Much To Say
*that's when I love you, I love you endlessly.

here's my promise made tonight

you can count on me for life.

Once again, the weekend has arrived.
I'm totally dreading it.
HOMEWORK.HOMEWORK.HOMEWORK.
*chants & meditates*

Sometimes, there's really so much to say. Sometimes, I don't know where to begin and where to end. It just comes naturally, the urge to want to tell you some things that you'd never knew. Of course, I'm smarter than you. HAHA. Just foolin' around. But there are times where one can't bottle up their feelings, there are times where confessions should just pour from our mouths. What's the use of hiding your feelings? Won't it be better if we could just express them openly? Yet again, the other party is the pivotal factor. Wouldn't it hurt to have someone call you names? Wouldn't it hurt to have someone bitch about you? Wouldn't you mind having a bad reputation in school? But these are the small nitty gritty things that make up our lives, everyday, people never fail to gossip. Everyday, some one gets hurt, physically or emotionally.

Yesterday's was Paula's PW pilot project. Here are just some random pictures brought to you from ME :D

ohmy.joshua's being stabbed by jeremy & he still looks so happy!

O.O

whoa. jeremy needn't look @ his opponent to fight.

haha. and their swords are so small. haha.

shara: 'munees,why do you keep playing the wrong chords?!?'

munees:'*continues smiling*'

this is Mr. Breakdancer. Showing off his moves.
haha.

wth is meenie doing with those swords?

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Wednesday, July 23, 2008
11:40 PM

The Cherry Blossom That Blooms in Adversity

*the rarest and most beautiful of them all. ~ MULAN

Hmmm

Okay, the last post seems to carry some evil intention or insult somebody. I know that, of course, I typed it. So, the truth is yes,it is.

I know it's really mean of me to say that, but it was just rash of me to come up with that post. But anyhow, human beings, which of course, includes ME, would have lots of emotional outbursts like that. And I hope my apology is accepted(I mean, if you ever read this. But if you didn't, it's fine.) We'll still get on with our lives and friendship.

No matter what perception that has been gathered of me from that previous post, I really don't care. But I just want to say that, that's just me;if I have any things/feelings that I have, lI just have to explicitly blurt them out through some medium, in this case, through here. I mean, don't expect me to bitch about someone who's alien to my sister, she won't even give a damn about my own friendship problems. LOL. But anyway, that's just that. IT SHALL END HERE,shall it?

For me, all I want is for everyone to live peacefully and harmoniously together. No matter where we are, we'll still be friends, though we will only be together for a couple more months, and then POOF! we're on our way to the 'A's. I mean, time really passes that fast and there so much work and revision to complete. Wherefore can friendship problems enter the picture? There's just no space for that. (If you read this: I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. My conscience is bugging me.) Human beings aren't perfect creatures to being with and let me reiterate: To err is human, to forgive is divine. I'll never forget that. Imperfection runs through our blood;we're all made wonderfully and unqiuely, in different ways all of us are blessed equally, but the problem is we don't see the equality of it all, especially materialistically. It just never ends, we keep wanting more and more and more and more...there's no stop to it.

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Monday, July 21, 2008
9:12 PM

This is ME

*future memories equals to present moments, happy or sad, they'll become a part of us. I just wanna be who I was called to be. Get away from my sight, she obviously doesn't know who she's up against. Who will win the battle? Who can be sure?

Once again, this is one of the times where just personal thoughts and feelings flood into my mind and I just felt the need to make use of my pretty pretty blog to do so. Penning it down is such a hassel. What's more, I'm so bloody tired. Just as well.

People are just very amusing and interesting creatures. I wonder why God made them. Anyway, aside that, I just feel that some time people can be very two-faced. What's the point of being a hypocrite and make yourself well-liked and popular in your surroundings? I mean, why don't just try being yourself, being who you really are. All this dolling up and wearing pretty dresses and skirts and clothes, all these constituite to what I perceieve as two-facedness. What's the use of wearing skimpy, lacy clothes that reveal your bra and everything that is supposedly "sacred" to others? Why, you want some lecher to pop out from behind you and rape you is it? I mean, I can't deny the harsh reality that girls and perhaps, increasingly more boys like to dress up and wear all those freaking thick eyeliner and make themseleves look so damn goth?! Like WTH please. Why not live with the bats in caves? Or even vampires? I'm sure they'll be your best friends, faithful ones moreover.

Aside that, friends, well, they are generally perceived to be "the greatest treasure of all time", aren't they? But well, ahah, that ain't the case. Some people believe they can create their own worlds, a place MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE to them, and only them. They forget about those poor "friends" so to speak, around them, they forget this, they forget that...yadayada. I needn't say more. It just heightens my blood pressure.

So what if one's fat and ugly? SO WHAT??? I mean, okay fine, aside from the disheartening fact that size 8s aren't permitted to enter one's closet, there are other ways to make yourself attractive. Not just wearing eyeliner, THICK eyeliner or even clothes that reveal too much, nono. Yes, it's said to be INNER beauty, but not the same perception of inner I think about. As in Macbeth, that's so "brainsickly" of things. LOL. Anyway, with clothes or without clothes, everything boils down to what's inside a person(character). Simply put, if you're empty within, you ought to do something about it. Take a kettle for example. We put water in it and let it boil. Think of the immense heat it has to undergo to remove the bacteria and what not present in the water. After that, we get clean water to drink to satisfy our thirst. Similary, humans have to undergo trials and hurdles in life before the 'impurities' are removed and we are respected and entrusted to certain responsibilities. Well, I'm not saying that only I need not experience this, I'm implying that EVERYONE has to go through it, or else, nothing will come out of nothing.

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Sunday, July 20, 2008
3:08 AM

Ride of Your Life

*where the lemon tree blossoms, I'll be there for you. Till the end, I'll be waiting.

NONO, I can't decieve myself any longer.
It hurts, and I want to put an end to this suffering.

This is what my DEAR friends did to my locker.
I still can't get over it, no, it's too "awesome"???
HAHAHA!

It's study time. Play days are long gone. Time to buckle up our shoes and pull up our socks.

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Friday, July 11, 2008
9:12 PM

Melifluous Music of The Night

*the nightingale sings a lovely melody. I can hear it;it's so beautiful. Can you hear it too?

Today was an exceptionally horrifying day. Not in a bad way, in a relatively good way I suppose. Just take a look at the photograph. It says it ALL. Indeed, a picture does speak a thousand words.

What a crazily childish class. But I'm glad it's funnn;)

Sometimes, there are some people who just like to be left alone. Sometimes, they find it hard to join in the fun because there's just too many people crowding around. Sometimes, it's hard to forget such incidences because they have heavily impacted us. CAUSE=small, IMPACT=LARGE. Sometimes, it just works this way and not the opposite. Do people even care about how they're feeling? Do others even bother to wait for them or even ask where one's going? Do they? I mean these people may think that these are just trivial, very trivial matters but to another person, they mean everything, and everything=friendship. What more could be used to describe friendships other than the daily little actions one would do for friends.

From some HK serial I watched earlier on, "Life is like a pendulum, hovering between sadness and hapiness" Then the girl tells the guy,"I wish you would swing toward the side of happiness. And even if you cry, your tears would be tears of joy." AWWWWW. For me, I wanna stay on the side of happiness too, but it is logically, inevitable for one to always stay happy. Sadness is also part and parcel of life isn't it? What's life without the shedding of tears? Oh please, you must think that I;m a drama mama. HAHA. Only at certain times, friend, only at certain times.

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Tuesday, July 08, 2008
9:53 PM

PLEASE DON'T DISTURB

* you're scaring the hell out of me. What in the world do you just want? Get a life, quick, go, get a life and stop pestering meeeeee!

~Source: www.gettyimages.com

Lust/Love. Hate/Trust.

Noise vs. Peace. Who will emerge victorious?

Go away.

Sometimes the little things people do on the Internet really sets me thinking. I can't always fathom why they do such silly, absurd things i.e stalking people, hacking into accounts etc. Need I say more? WHY? WHY? WHY? OMGGGG. This Internet World is really starting to scare me a lot. Why can't it be simple, pure and innocent, like a child's toy? Why must it be so friggin' complex and complicated? Why must single thing, even the most miniscule of them all be intermingled? But in any case, I really must thank the person who invented the Internet. It really helped me in lot of research that I had to do throughout my life in school. THANKS:D

The wind blows

Can you hear it?

The heart beats as one? Or perhaps two?

Why is love such a complicated matter? Why does it always adds pressure to our minds, our whole being to be exact? Why is it so difficult for people to fall in love? But yet there are some who fall in and out of love so easily. Why is this so? Isn't faithfulness a crucial element to a successful relationship? Is the feeling of jealousy always present between two competing parties? Why ain't it easy to resolve this feeling? Why must jealousy often be the root cause of all destruction? Why is love such a thought-provoking matter? Why? Why? Why?

"Love is an exploding cigar we willingly smoke."

- Lynda Barry

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Saturday, July 05, 2008
9:59 AM

The Truest Goals

* "what is this life, full of care, when we don't stop and stare?"

Life's just like a rainbow; at the end of it, lies a treasure so important that motivates people to seek for it and get it. Only then will they be satisfied. But why not look at it this way: even as we tread on the rainbow, what truly is our aim? To retrieve the treasure or to enjoy the beauty and serenity that life itself holds? Nowadays everyone's so busy that they don't have time to relax, no time for leisure, no time for themselves even. What's this world coming to?!?!

I was just thinking about school and my mind was so overwhelmed with thoughts that my brain had to sort them out slowly. Whoa, thanks Brain, you did well:D LOL! Well, aside that, school's really a fun place to be in, We get to meet new people everyday, see familiar faces when we walk around the compound and there are teachers who are so amiable and easy to communicate with, who care so much for the welfare of their WONDERFUL students. Oh mann, it's really a blessing to be in such a what I would call a conducive environment. But when it comes to building whatever sort of relationships with people, it's gonna get tough. I mean one can't like pop out from nowhere and say," Hello. Wanna be my friend?" WTH! firstly, this scares the wits out of people, secondly, it is really really weird for someone whom we have no friend-friend connection or blood relation to just pop out and express their desire to want a friend. But yet again, look on the bright side, it's a good thing somebody wants to be your friend, or else, how is one gonna survive school being a loner?

I can't help but say that my life's been really awesome the past few months. I miss my study partner ever since school re-opened. Gee, I hope she would come study with me again. And the scandals of yestermonths are so so over. With the old gone, the new can come in. And eyecandying has been a fairly bad habit which I would like to overcome, but it's just Nature's way of life I guess. HAHA. Well, anyway, life's just the way it is. I'll it, whatever comes my way. Nothing less, nothing more.

love, love, love<3

Yours Truly,

signing out

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