Friday, August 29, 2008
9:21 PM
Dreams Come True?
*why is it that they can while I can't?
I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
I'm more than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me
Worldly desires are just some crap that gives us momentary satisfaction. What about things that give us lasting satisfaction? I was just browsing through profile after profile, picture after picture. I still don't understand why is it that they can while I can't.
What's the matter with them? Or, rather, could it be my problem? It's jut so utterly complicated. I'm tangled, stuck, trapped by own insecurities. Like King Lear? I wonder. But, please, I don't wanna go mad. I question: why is it that the world has so many things which are within my reach but then again, they aren't. What then should I do? Be brave and reach out? Will I go for it and be all that I can be? I don't know, I really don't know.
I guess I'm just a lil' crazy. I don't want and will never ever want jealousy to get the better of me. No, no. After what I have experienced through my study of 'King Lear', no, I'm afraid? I don't want to appear or even be vicious. I just want to be me: kind, caring, loving me. When will the right time come? I pray, please tell me. I'm so desperate to find out when I'll share those good and bad times. I want to proclaim to the world the wonder of life. Don't tell me I've got to wait for a few years more? Please, tell me no, it's not gonna be like that right? Gee, I feel lost, helpless, left out.
ANYWAY... ...
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY
This goes out to all teachers who have taught me in one way or another
(though you guys may not be able to read this. LOL)
Promos are approaching already. I'm in need of prayers:)
Signing out.
<3<3 <3
Sunday, August 17, 2008
3:18 AM
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Let Your Light Shine
*longjump.highjump.shotput.discus.heptathlon.sprinter.distancerunning... ...
After you left, time passed real quickly. I was waiting, I was watching.
Gee, I'm so into the Olympic mood now:D haha. I spent my entire morning watching the Olympics. It was GOOD.
Previous night I viewed the track events. I wonder why men in Western countries are so freaking tall and heavy. The commentator kept saying," (name of athlete),(weight),(height)." LOL. It kept me wondering, WTH are these guys eating??!LOL. Anyway, who am I say these of them? I'm not that skinny either. Oh well. Anyway, the Polish have good shot putters.
OMGGG, Ukraine women are so pretty:D! hahah. And I realized that Russians can run/walk FASTTTT! Kenyans & Jamaicans have the ability to run and blahhh, sadly, I don't have such a talent, or else I think I would be in the Olympics already. LOL.
Watching the Olypmics, I realized many smaller nations have been marginalized. I mean they don't really appear much on TV or newspapers and well, they have pretty good athletes actually. Perhaps, talent could be tapped from such countries. On the track and the field, I don't really see many Asians. I mean, WHY??? Couldn't more athletes be trained or something? What's the Sports School for? But thanks to them, SG got into the Olympics:D I regret not seeing dear Tao Li swimming, or the table tennis team hitting table tennis balls! LOL. At least I'm glad these people helped put Singapore in a better light, and showing the world that though we're small, we will fight on and claim our deserved victory! Gee, that sounds so... i can't say patrioitc but err... nevermind. =.=
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAULA! :D
Anyway peeps, continue to enjoy the Olympics:D
OMGG, the EPL's gonna start again?! ahahahah<3
signing out dears:D
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Sunday, August 10, 2008
9:39 PM
Graduation - Friends Forever?
*and so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Chris Isaak - Graduation Day
Driving slowly, watching the headlights in the rain.
Funny how things change.
Think of the good times wishing you were still with me.
The way it used to be, graduation day.
Watching the stars fall, a million dreams have all gone bad.
Think of all we had.
I knew all then, thought you loved me I was wrong.
Life goes on, graduation day, oh, graduation day.
Thinking of a time when everything was right.
Thinking of a time with only you and I.
Makes me sorry that it had to end that way.
Learned my lesson now there's nothing left to say,
graduation day, oh graduation day.
Thinking of a time when everything was right.
Thinking of a time with only you and I.
Makes me sorry that it had to end that way.
Learned my lesson now there's nothing left to say,
graduation day, oh graduation day.
Oh graduation day.
signing out
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You & Me & Me & You
*promises aren't meant to be broken. say you'll wait till that very day, when our love was lost and found again. say you'll promise to wait, to wait & wait & wait & wait... ... ...
Happy (belated) Birthday, SINGAPORE!:D
NDP'08 wasn't that bad afterall. I thought the performances were spectacular and whoa, I SAW MY SECONDARY SCHOOL PEOPLE PERFORMING! :D gee, I didn't know they were so 'on' about it. haha. Anyway, I'm still glad my secondary school got somewhat featured.
I saw the airplanes from my house. the traces of smoke they left in the air, the loud zooming of the engines, the passionate pilots. The afternoon sun shoots through the tinted windows. I'm awakedned by the heat that it radiates. Daydreaming ends here. LOL. I just saw some guy who freaking couldn't do butterfly stroke. It was hilarious:P
Will you know my name? If you saw me in heaven.
Serenity.Tranquility.A Possibility.Every Opportunity.
Find A Way. Make A Way. Tread Back. Into The Past.
I find it so hard to believe that time flies so F-A-S-T.
Timeless efforts, in your name.
<3<3 <3
Thursday, August 07, 2008
11:08 PM
'Cause It's No Good For Me
* I know I shouldn't be doing this, but I'll miss you.
The first time our eyes met, please forgive me, I can't stop loving you.
It feels like the first time together. Still holding on.
Well, just knowing that you all are gonna leave like so freaking soon, I think this post should be dedicated to ALL of you.
TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN:
(albeit you guys don't know who you are)
I think it's only right that I should wish you all the best.
There's not much time left. I just wished we knew each other, and well, jsut be friends. At least we still have that connection. You get what I mean? It a horrible sinking feeling just knowing that all will be gone in no time. Why? Why is it so fast? Why is there the time factor in everything? WHY???
Anyhow, I wanna say that colour has been so much more prevalent since your "grand" entrance. And I don't know if He has put me in the right place or not, but I still love this place and all the memories that fill the compund. All these, will just be a memory I hold close to my heart. All those times of upsurgence of emotions. I'll never forget them too. All those days, those breaks and rest times, I'll treasure them. I'll refelct upon them. I'll move on right, won't I?
After you've taken your mandatory leave, I don't wanna hear goodbyes. It'll just make me feel upset and you'll make me feel freaking horrible. I don't want. It's best that I don't hear anything. It's best that you say nothing at all. But thinking of it, it's quite ironical for me to say all of these things. All along, hasn't it always been like that? All along, haven't we been keeping quiet and acting as if we were mutes, too frightened to say a word? Too cowardly to declare certain things?
I don't know.
I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know I love forever
I know no matter what
If only tears were laughter
If only night was day
If only prayers were answered
Then we would hear God say
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Tuesday, August 05, 2008
11:49 PM
A Beautiful Florentine
*tears of joy, tears of sadness, what lies ahead may be madness. But out of sight, is a great blue yonder, that carries our hopes and dreams forever after.
Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
You know, just looking at how time really flies, I don't have much time left, let alone you. I've been meaning to say so many things, good things and dreadful ones, but ahhhh, Fate perhaps would not want anything to happen. And today's damn sexuality talk was like OMGGG. LOL. Anyway, whenever, wherever I see, gee, I feel so sad knowing that you're gonna leave so soon. lalalalala...There's not much time left. Must we do something about it? I wonder.
So who will be the first to make a move? An action? I don't know, I can't say. But I just hope that the stupid little girlie dreams I have will ring true. Like they say, "DREAMS COME TRUE". I kind of believe in that but if that really happens in real life it's really dejavu, which seems rather horrifying and intriguing. But anyhow, we don't know what tomorrow will bring. We can't tell the future. But I'm just hoping that everything will eventually turn out fine and although it's practically impossible to wish for things to go my way, I just hope that our tomorrows will be good and fruitful? LOL. Anyhow, I'm just wishing, still hoping and longing for an angel to guide us,to tell us where we're heading. I think that'll be so cool:D
I happened to look out and I saw, I just that was purely luck. Gee, how often can one be dependent on luck? But I'm just glad that it made my day by that accidental looking out. haha. i just hope that everytime I look out of that door, I'll be seeing the "things" I wanna see. I'll be so happy that I don't even wanna leave the room, but that's really unfeasible 'cos in life, not everything will go my way. I understand that fully. Anyhow, at least there's a few weeks more. A few weeks more before prelims, a few weeks more before promotionals, a few weeks more before 'A' Levels, a few weeks more before school closes, a few weeks more before we bid farewell. I don't want that day to come, I don't want T__T
p.s I love you<3
-the movie was okay, a bit sexual but still fine O.O
<3<3 <3
Sunday, August 03, 2008
5:22 PM
The Page Is The Stage
*where each day is a blank piece of paper, to be filled with memories, I wanna fill them them top to toe, with memories of you & me. Buffets of words, where descriptions go vivid and everything is brought to life.
Dreams also need wings to help them fly
Anyway, yesterday was the 'wIll Run' event @ SR. Photographer in actionnn. hehehe.
After yesterday, I was kept thinking. I don't know why I felt that way, but it was a funny yet good feeling. It was just weird. And I told myself to forget about it, but I just couldn't help it. There's so many things in life I wanna share, but I just wanna to for now, keep it with me first. We'll see next time.
I unexpectedly went onto YouTube to surf videos and I found some cheesy catch. I don't know why they hit me so much but I enjoyed watching them. It's really something very Tinkerbellely. Oh well. Anyhow, these video clips sort of showed me some things in life that could be very amazing. I guess the effect on different people will be different:D
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VKZ-88fqObM&feature=related
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y0fGGoPUxUg&feature=related
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tu9T77Fa2HQ
Toodles:D
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