thecolouredstage

Wednesday, October 29, 2008
12:04 PM

Stood Right By Me
*through the tears, through everything

Sorry, my dear 'avid' readers. Updates aplenty!

1) Promotionals
+Some obviously got promoted, some didn't
It's actually quite a devastating fact for someone who got promoted throughput his/her life then when they come to JC, their moral strength is crushed by the harsh fact that they failed the exams. omggg T.T take it not so hard:/

2) OP Preparation
+it totally sucks the hell out of each of us.
It started yesterday actually. It was pretty crapfully done:x We were so totally unprepared. LOL. My poor group leader couldn't even make it for class yesterday!:/ So left me and S. But anw, R wanted me to have more coaching sessions:x sianess rules here -.=

3) Deepavali 2008 (27 October)
+an eye opener(:
Jovien and I went to Priya's house for Deepavali. It was pretty the cool, the decorations and FOOD! LOL:) Anw., we watched a Hindu comedy, it was hilarious! I like the Indian culture<3

4) Chinese 'A' Levels
+it's like TOMORROW!!!
okay, and I'm like still so freaking relaxed?! hahahah:D I trust myself, I trust God<3

Anyway, here's my best wishes to all those taking the ongoing 'O' Levels and the upcoming 'A' levels! love<3

cheers&love

<3<3 <3

Saturday, October 18, 2008
1:07 PM

Many Things I'll Never Say

*you're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me,
I need to find you, I gotta find you.

You bring the sunshine through my life~<3

Now that you're gone, it seems that life in general is different. I can't see you further on your journey. All I can do is to well, wish you all the best in your endeavours and the upcoming major events. Anyhow, I feel that time has really played a prank on me. It tricked me into thinking that I had so much time left, but I realised I hadn't. I wish things would happen and I wish I could see sparks flying. It would be cool, wouldn't it? I guess we should have our moves earlier? I don't know about you, but I guess I should have. Regrets & tears, unfounded, unfolded.

I wish you could leave me with a fake sunflower, at least something which I can use as a keepsake. But, nahhh, that's kind of impossible. LOL. Anyhow, it would be nice to see whether this world is really that small. No matter what, I must learn to let go, to move on, to see the greater things in life. Love is one of them. I THINK I may have seen it and even felt it, but I can't have it.

I really wonder how it would be like next year, or perhaps even the next few months. I wonder how different it would be. For one, there would be lesser manpower, there would be less consultations?(hahahah) and well, the mood will just not be the same, at least for me. Others seem nonchalant about the fact, but I seem to care so much about it. Why is this so?

Anyway, Chinese & PW killing me. But I've gotta press on. C'mon Clarahh, you can do it! hang in there for the next 2 weeks and it'll be overrrrrr!!!:D

xoxo
cheers&love

<3<3 <3

Thursday, October 16, 2008
6:28 PM

I Wish That I Could Move On
* You're the Black Horse and I'm the Cherry Tree.

And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.

I don't know why but whenever I think about tomorrow, I feel as if I'm going to lose lots of things. I'm scared. I don't wanna lose anything; any emotion, any thoughts. I wanna see you everyday and see how you're doing. When I think of you leaving, it's just so devastating. There's so much I wanna say that I haven't said. I'm just afraid that I'll never ever get another chance to say what I wanna say. I'll admit I'm afraid of telling it upfront. I'm sad, I'm well, I just don't want to give up a chance.

You keep looking my way. What are you trying to tell me? Or are you telling me anything at all? I want to know how you feel and well, just be friends till the end. No matter what happens I know I can always count on you, can't I? And besides, I don't wanna lose out. I can feel it, in my bones, I know you want to say something but you just can't. And I can't too.

Thinking about it, school has all the more lighten up because of ... I wish you stood right by me and accompany me through the good and the rough times. I hope I'll remember you and I hope you'll do too. I hope Providence would give each of us a chance. Really. I'll remember you(hopefully), I never thought it'd be like this. But I know it'll be forever true.

p.s do you know i <3>

cheers&love

<3<3 <3

Sunday, October 12, 2008
2:26 PM

Tell The Whole Story
*let the whole world know of your inscrupulous deeds & thoughts. Let them know your darker side & that you're not so innocent afterall.

And she means every little thing to me
I've got your picture in my wallet
And your phone number to call it
And I miss you more, whenever I think about you
I've got your mix tape in my Walkman
Been so long since we've been talking
And in a few more days, we'll both hook up forever, and ever.

Such a depressing day as it is. Once again, MAID PROBLEMS.As usual, those old problems keep haunting us Singaporeans. Okay, we hire maids to help us with household chores, look after children and whatever not. WE, Singaporeans give them proper food, lodging, reasonable pay and what do WE get in return? Missing $$$, broken glass, lost trust in foreign workers etc. and the list goes on. It's so demoralizing. As a pre-adult, I seem to have lost trust in this as well, since, well it happened right before my eyes and from what I heard. I mean, WE on't practice maid abuse. Come on lah, since we treat them as part of the family(just that they have larger responsibilities in helping with household work which is tiresome), why should they take advantage of us?! Okay, fine, they admit that they have done something morally wrong, then they said sorry. But what I wanna say is that "sorry no cure!" Seriously, it's just working faithfully for a family that treats you quite reasonably and well, and you do this kind of dirty work and make them lose trust in you?!?! Worth it meh!?

Anyway, I'm pretty sure M & P are feeling well, disappointed and dejected that someone seemingly harmless would do such a thing. But jolly glad that it's gonna end soon I hope. Despite the harsh reality that no one's gonna pick up after me(soon), I'm quite glad that my things would be safe. After all, everything still boils down to the simple idea of "not letting in strangers and beware of them"! Character in this sense speaks a lot.

Oh well, I ain't feeling that good now. I shall sign out now.

cheers&love

<3<3 <3

Saturday, October 11, 2008
2:43 PM

Never Thought

*smiles and dreams, wishes and fishes, in a bowl. this evidently makes so sense.

Yesterday was Navin's birthday! it was well, something that I had never seen before. Impressive? okay, but more of OMGGGGzzz:x LOL. Anyway, we used eggs, flour, whipped cream and chocolate fudge to "bring him down". But not all of us got as messy as him. hahah! that's for all those times you bullied us Navin! Anyhow, he's still one of the nicer classmates in school(: poor poor Navin:P LOL. This was his fabulous b'day cake which Meena put up a strong resistance to get it! wheee!(:

Anyway, today I had to return to school for CIP for SRGCE. We became karang guni men/ women for a few hours:x LOL. Ms Yeo treated all of us to bubble tea! three cheers!(: see, see, my PW teacher is so nice!

I'll be going to church later. Gotta go get ready. I'm so worn out by today's collection +.+ anyway, have a great weekend ahead!

cheers&love

<3<3 <3

Thursday, October 09, 2008
11:20 PM

Swinging Sixties
*you'll always be the sun in my sky(: I'll remember you.

CIP today was crappie/fun/crazy/lame/whatever/=.=. You choose what you want to complete the sentence. We sat in the freaking library for a whole 7 hours, okay, aside from all the short breaks and the hour long lunch break, we sat there keying in data of past SRJCians. LOL:P It was a really interesting session. With all the laughter about weird people with weird looks and odd names, it was so hilarious. When the session was nearing to an end, we went crazy singing songs that we were fabulous with in primary school! LOL:P hahahaha! Anyway, it was kind of fun lahh, not that I went crazy with them, it was so funny hearing them sing and going all gaga!(:

Tomorrow's Navinn's birthday! I'll bet it'll be fun! LOL:x hahaha. The plans have been devised and set in place; I hope and wish you girls success! LOL.

Wah, I am so damn tired. Chinese lecture today was do freakin' BORINGGG! and there's like a mock zuo wen exam tmrw?!!? aww mann!-.- I wanna die already. +__+ *raises my white flag*

Things hasn't been going so smoothly between M and me. We quarrel over the strangest little things. And she said I even betrayed her trust! Well, something like that. I wonder if we'll be on talking terms again. She says I'm materialistic, and doesn't wanna give me some $$$ to buy my own things that I like. hurrrrr,it's just so irritating. It's like everytime I talk to her she just gets so menopausal! LOL. Anyway, I'm not gonna rant anymore about this. Don't wanna wash dirty linen in public. +__+

cheers&love

<3<3 <3

Saturday, October 04, 2008
9:32 PM

Heaven Is a Wonderful Place
*it's filled with glory and grace. I wanna see my Saviour's face. Heaven is a wonderful place(:

Pastor today was quite a funny man. He kept saying "touch screen" like the whiteboard in IT Room 2 when it wasn't. hahah. The sermont was hilarious. But the content was certainly valuable. In essence: 'SAVED BY GRACE, SERVE BY GRACE'. Simple & easy like ABC. But it really conforms to the whole idea of NATO(no action talk only). We shouldn't make empty promises but instead make ourselves useful and do what we all are capable of doing. This applies to everything, from school work to when we enter the work force to our lives. I remember the Principal reinforcing the ideas of: WORK READY, WORLD READY, LIFE READY. It triggered many thoughts within me. It really makes a lot of sense, don't you think? I mean if we're ready and geared for work, wouldn't we be ready to enter the world and get involved with the issues revolving around the planet like environmental issues and poverty problems? If we're prepared already, wouldn't be able to handle our own lives better and in a more meaningful way, a way in which after we depart, we will not leave behind any regrets? So you see, this is an ENTIRE process which encapsulates LIFE.

Anyway, Mom brought me to the Converse Sale somewhere near my house(: I love my estate, though it's a bit old and run down, but it's so central and convienient(: Anyway, that's not the point. The first thing I heard when I entered the 'market packed full of sardines' there was this 13/14 year old girl saying," zhe li shuo 'excuse me' shi mei you yong de. Ni yao shuo EXCUSE me ci ke yi." LOL. Like wth?!? of course there was much pushing and bustling about. Really, Singaporeans are so kiasu. I'm not saying that I'm not but it's true. Any sale and you'll see gazillion Singaporeamns rushing towards it. oh well. Anyway, I got myself some good buys: a brown bag-like the one Paula has for $19.90; 2 pairs of pumps(beige)-$50 in total and 2 pairs of Lee Cooper sneakers for $50 too! Omggggg, I wanna go back there and buy more shoes! LOL:P I sound so greedy but I have indeed been waiting for this sale for so freaking longggggg!:P Then at the cashier, there was this b*tch and her mom who stood in front of my mom and I. This was the conversation:

girl: {looks @ the brown bag and my mom's green bag} wah, that bags are so heavy mom! that's why I didn't buy those. I bought the black one thankfully. {smiles gleefully and narcissitcally(i must add that) at her own friggin proud mom}
girl's mom(kiasu): yesyes, girl, you got the receipt? huh? check check.

Okay, in this freaking short conversation, we can see HER TRUE COLORS SHINING TRUE!!(: OMGGGGG, wah lao that woman damnn B*TCH please! So blatanly said that my and my mom's bags were heavy!! Obviously lah, she so blooddie skinny, carry already sure fall and crack into pieces please! Omggggg, damn her mann! IDIOT, she has got no manners at all. Seriously, so what if she got the black one, huh? huh? Black represents death and I forsee that doom will befall her and... And I could go on to say worse things but I shan't. Being brought up in a PROPER family(unlike SOMEONE) I've learnt to let go and not take things to heart. So, Clara, *deep breath* release all your frustrations. But seriously, that b*tch hasn't got proper manners. pfft:P

Anyway, no point raising my blood pressure over that b*tch. I found joy in doing the Likeness Quizzes on FB. LOL:D
tata!(:

cheers&love

<3<3 <3

Thursday, October 02, 2008
1:31 PM

The Wired Bunch
*we're connected, deep inside us. we know, it's so great. it's the little things that make our lives great.

this innocence is brilliant
this moment is perfect
I need you now
I'll hold on to it
Don't let it pass you by

Lunched with the CHALET PEOPLE(: sounds as if we're a clique or something. But anyhow, they are great people! We were reminiscing the morning events before today. whoa, so much went on, but much of it were furiously hilarious!:p darn funny mann! In any case, the stayover was really superb in the sense that it brought all of us closer to each other. All the unsoberness and cacophony and the impudence and unrefined lines that drifted from our mouths. I'll remember them all; it was memorable(: love you guys! I hope there'll be another one. But I'll RECONSIDER staying over. hahahah! Anyway, it was really great fun:D Especially pictionary/charrades: The Chinks vs. Bollywood. LOL+.=

Sometimes, it's hard not to contradict what you say. And like Pastor said to think before saying for what you've said can't be retrieved back like a 4 horse charriot. Something along those lines. I guess the contradiction makes it seem as if it was a lie and hence the misinterpretation. zomg, whenever I see this word I think of international history: The Cold War =.= Anyway, that's not the point. The point is that sometimes people don't mean what they say. Just take it with a pinch of salt. Yes, although there are trustworthy people who tell the honest truth (like me, err, sometimes:x) but there's not really any substantial evidence to prove that what they are saying is true, isn't it? Anyway, in a nutshell, just don't look at things on the surface level. Dive in and take a deeper look.

I've said my piece. There are lots of things I want to say but I can't find the right words to express them. For now, they are only feelings. I wish there was one more day of holiday):

cheers&love

<3<3 <3

Wednesday, October 01, 2008
4:28 PM

Teardrops in Heaven
*I must be strong and carry on.

We're falling faster will you think about it
If I fall over will you catch me baby
Cause there's an awful lot of people waiting
To get their hands on everything we've got.

Yesterday was a hell lot of trouble-making and noise pollution x__x

Nevertheless, the whole event could be considered a successful failure. What juxtaposition is this?! LOL:P

Anyhow, for myself, I realized a few things through the event. I think I had went overboard. It was really too much on my part. When I saw them, I don't know why but it just dawned upon me that I really wasn't doing what I should be doing. I betrayed myself, and more importantly my God T__T

Inside me I sort of knew He was pretty angry with me. And the torrential rains He sent down. One, it was cooling and well kind of made the place a lil' comfortable with the short gusts of wind. Two, I thought that perhaps He was sad and that made Him cry a whole lot. I mean, I don't know if it's right to say that when He sends rain down, it means He's unhappy. To me, I think it that way. Anyhow, it just happened so fast, so unknowingly. I couldn't take it, so I broke down and cried T_T. Thankfully, during the horrrid episode, some guys were not *ahem*. At least they comforted me and I'm really glad to know that at least my classmates don't scorn me for not "pushing boundaries". At least they helped me to think through certain things and well, I guess I must thank them for helping me in one way or another.

Besides, I realized that some friends of mine are really gonna get themselves into well, serious trouble in the near future? I don't know if I can say that but, yeah. I'm not gonna mention names or anything of that sort neither am I going to say the things that they did or what, but I just had to "pen" down these thoughts. Life is really really short. Many of us, well, in fact all of us do not know when we're gonna go. It's so delicate and all and like we keep harming ourselves; it could be anything. It's just not worth it. Man must know their limits as to what they can do and cannot do.

Anyhow, I guess this will be my entry for today. I'm still feeling a lil' tired but I think I'll just watch some TV(:

cheers&love

<3<3 <3