Friday, January 30, 2009
11:19 PM
Those Times You Stood By Me
*you're the definition of all that I want. I don't know why, but I think I'm falling in <3>
school - currently the most uninspiring place to be.
tired =.=
I don't know why, but I just like to be with you. It's fun and easy going. I like to laugh at you and with you, call you names and all (hope you won't mind). There's so much that I want to express, but I find it hard to. More than words, that's how I feel. The atmosphere's just not right when you're not there. I keep a watchful eye for you, for you to come and say hello or poke fun at me or do something real dumb. No matter what, I think I like you for who you really are. It's just amusing how you show me that appearances don't really matter. The kind of feeling I get, it's fantastic.
There's so many things I can imagine doing with you. There's so many things, important things, random ramblings, I wish I could just pick up my phone and make conversation with you. I wish I could drop you smses everyday without hesitating. I wish, I wish, I wish for so much more than I ever wished in the past year. I guess what's past is past, and I got to move on with my life. And move on where I fell. Many stupid things I've done, and undoubtedly regret. I'm not sure whether this one-sided choice of mine is right, but I'm gonna give it a chance. I'm not sure how it's going to work out and I'm not sure of what's going to happen. But I know for sure that this year's gonna be real superb for you & me!(:
xoxo
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
8:43 PM
Watching the Big Yellow Taxis
*Have you ever wanted someone to care? Have you ever wanted someone to be there? Cos I really do.
currently hooked onto C21's 'Don't Wanna Lose You'.
love the lyrics
tired.tired.tired.
how will I know what you're thinking? I just keep questioning and questioning. I don't know if I should stay this way, cos I think I'd just hurt myself more each day. It's so difficult to see myself through each day, knowing that you're with me all day. I just can't seem to forget you, but I know I really have to. I can't live life this way, I need to find another way. But the feeling you give me, I can't describe it. It's joy, it's ecstacy, it's the definition of all that I want! I like to chide you, I like to poke fun at you. But really, all these small actions are the real actions that make me happy. Sometimes they even make my day. I like to talk to you and listen to what you say. There's so much I want to do with you, but there doesn't seem to be the chance to. And I know things might not work out right. The years to come may shine bright, but only God knows what comes tonight. I'll just have to keep on playing the guessing game, until I might finally see the light.
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
5:18 PM
Pre/During/Post CNY 2009
*I couldn't help it. I binged & I grew fatter each time new year arrived.
Pre-CNY
It was a Saturday. Met up with my juniors and CF for luncheon @ Pizza Hut. GB girls favourite haunt. LOL. Anw, we walked around and cam-whored till the batteries went flat. I headed toward Chinatown, by my lonely self): But I got some great bargains which made up for it. Anw, I didn't really feel the same as previous years when CNY arrived. I didn't feel too hyped up about it. It was just -__-. Nevertheless, I couldn't resist the pasteries that were sitting idle in my house. So I helped myself to them generously. hahah. ok, it's dieting time.
During CNY
For the record, 3 of them came earlier than us! Finally, a role reversal in action. zomg, Aunt L. popo's cake is damn good! And I love to hear stories from her. It makes all of us seem closer to each other, sharing some kind of bond and love among all of us present. Chrissy's going to Japan on Thursday. I hope she'll have a good time there, like I did!(: gee, I miss Japan. Anw, went to mama's house and got all hyped up about majong -- our love(esp. cny, cos that's the only time we get to gamble). hahah. Played a few rounds, I won a few rounds, S won MANY rounds which kind of got us into believing that the fengshui for her was right. LOL. We got a lil' sian playing so we turned to some IQ games. AHA! That's something that adults don't know but we semi-adults know! Alas!(: Played a few round of 'Old Maid' -- forfeit: putting on make-up. HAHAH! Well, thinking about it, I wonder how things will be like for us five in the future and when will be the next time we can get to meet up and have truckloads of fun again.
Post CNY
No need to guess.I'll just be mugging and mugging and mugging till the Big 'A's.
tata!(:
You are the one, you are the one
Who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
Where ever you go
You are the one
Why make it harder, than it has to be
Just listen
I’ll give you love
If you’ll give me your heart
~C21
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Friday, January 23, 2009
8:34 PM
If I Could Reach, Higher
just for one moment touch the sky,from that one moment in my life,i'm gonna be stronger.
love Gloria Estefan's 'Reach'.
currently hooked onto Bryan Rice's ' Where Do You Go'
CNY celebrations today, so it was just half a day of school, and just half a day of some nonsence that some people gave me. Stresses me, stresses my heart, my being, my soul. The impact is extensive. Thanks goodness for supportive classmates. love you guys mann(:
I officially hate projects. Today, 23 Jan, is officially 'Clara-Hates-Projects' Day. Declared.
Stayed back with Jac and her crew for Lit Project. I went ahead with my splendid plans with the decor of the classroom/classboard!(: I hope the people will be pretty impressed with what we did to our class. hahah. Anw, highlight of the day: we got stuck in the concrete bodies of SR):
TWO SR STUDENTS TRAPPED IN SCHOOL
Reporting by Clara
Two students were found trapped in the premises of the college after cny celebrations.
OM had to rush back to reopen the shutters while halfway on journey back home.
One boy, who declined to be named, said that they were about to call 995 before the trustee security guard called the OM back.
LOL. okay, no, don't laugh anymore, serious matter leh! (for those who know who these students are) hahah!
OMG, jac, this is going to be hilarious if it hits the papers! LOL:x
I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm
He came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man that I adored.
~Natalie Imbruglia
Emotionally hurt and burned. Hit and run, you crossed my heart.
Captured,raptured, say you won't be the one to tear me into pieces.
Eject, let go, let rest, let love.
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
9:54 PM
Lost Without You
By Delta Goodrem
I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out
I thought I had all the answers
Never giving in
But baby since you’ve gone
I admit that I was wrong
CHORUS (1)
All I know is I’m lost without you
I’m not gonna lie
How am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever said we’ll never be together
and we ended with goodbye
Don’t know what I’d do
I’m lost without you
CHORUS (2)
I keep trying to find my way
but all I know is
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
Lost without you
How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues?
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You’re the only thing that’s on my mind
Oh my beds so cold at night
I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right
No I’m not too proud to say
CHORUS (1)
All I know is I’m lost without you
I’m not gonna lie
How am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever said we’ll never be together
and we ended with goodbye
Don’t know what I’d do
I’m lost without you
CHORUS (2)
I keep trying to find my way
but all I know is
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
Lost without you
If I could only hold you now
Make the pain just go away
Can’t stop the tears from running down my face
(oh)
CHORUS (1)
All I know is I’m lost without you
I’m not gonna lie
How am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever said we’ll never be together
and we ended with goodbye
Don’t know what I’d do
I’m lost without you
CHORUS (2)
I keep trying to find my way (yeah)
but all I know is
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
(but all I know is)Lost without you
I keep trying to find my way
And all I know is
I’m lost without you
I'm lost without you.
xoxo
<3<3 <3
You're Falling Out of Reach
*May we defy gravity? I hope you'll remember me, won't you?
currently hooked onto Delta Goodrem's ' Lost Without You'.
watched the last 15 mins of America Got Talent. Gosh, the song the lady sung was so OMGGGG! Please, if anyone knows the name of the song, let me know! (:
Took the bus home and I was spending my time watching TV Mobile. hahah! I realised the green monster in Just For Laughs looked like Munees. wahahahah! LOL:D Anw, the bus has got some really funny moments screened. There was like this guy they featured, piggy-backing his dog. LOL. damn funny. I wanted to laugh so much, but had to control :x
I'm feeling damn shag x__x.
"She looked forward to their entrance, as the point on which all her chance of pleasure for the evening must depend." ~ Jane Austen
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
7:16 PM
I'm Sending You My Love
*remember when we're such fools. I wish I could call you my friend. Still you said forever.
currently hooked onto Jason Donovan's 'Sealed With a Kiss'.
School's been blah! Took an Econs test on market failure which I mentally prepared myself to copy the answer sheet thrice. So much for skipping Math tuition on Monday just to revise for this test. ughhh. Anw, I can't wait to TGFF (thank God for Friday). Everyone needs a break like seriously. I mean everyone DESERVES a break, after much toiling and slogging their guts out for a week.
Paid a visit to the hospital which meant that I had to miss half an hour of GP plus an hour of Lit lecture! I felt that Mr. A didn't feel too glad about me skipping class :x oh well, no choice if I needed to get that darn letter to excuse me from pe. worthwhile, I must say. I saw some pitiful old people there. It was really a heart-wrenching scene. I mean, I felt like going over to say hi but afterall, I'd just be saying hi and the person won't be able to respond. It's really, zomg, I hope I won't grow up and end up like that. I think I'd better make plans to admit myself into an old folks home where I'll have friends and a home and not grow old and die lonely. Oh gosh, I feel so much for he and his family. It must be really tough on them huh?
YAY! I really can't wait for friday! I think I'll be meeting J then(: She just returned from Australia. wheee, love her deep deep. hahah! And besides I can get to play my contributory role to the class by helping with the A01 class board! At least I can do something I enjoy on Friday before embarking on another lorryload of homework and studying. x__x
CNY's at our doorstep. $$$ come to mama! LOL. sheesh, I sound so money-minded. ughh.
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Sunday, January 18, 2009
10:11 AM
Down The Waterfall
*I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off you. Nothing to do, nothing to prove.
It has been a WEEK long. I have a massive heap of homework to do and numerous tests to study for. It sounds a lil' exaggerated, but it isn't. JC2 inhibits what we call 'life'. It's a time of maximum study and VERY minimum play. It's just utterly 'ughhh'.
Talking about minimum play and maximum study, yesterday was the much-awaited-for Literature Walk. zomg, I'm so going back there! hahah. A (cheapskate)shopperholic's desire to buy (cheap) stuff can be fufilled there! LOL. Anw, our group was escorted(?) by Mr. D. Tan with the company of my lovely classmates! hahah! it was a fun experiential learning 'journey'.
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M's so friggin' anal about housework and all. I think I'll just be like Suwen, who suppresses her thoughts and feelings. I'll just let my insides scream out loud! LOL. Anw, I don't know why, but I get this feeling that she prolly has some issues? ahh, whatever.
tons and tons and tons and tons of homework, now and still to come.
I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my fate? - Robbie Williams
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Sunday, January 11, 2009
7:21 PM
Oh No, Not Again?
*wham, and reality hits you in the face once again.
Goodness me, school's starting like TOMORROW!!! x__x
Anw, aside the dampening fact which I just typed above, M came home with sushi for me! wheee!(: At least, I get to enjoy my last proper meal which I'll be having on this last night/evening of my holiday. It's so depressing that I have to get pass the 'A' Levels first before my next round of hols come again. darn. No choice lah. Gotta accept what I chose. ahh well.
I attended Econs class today. Let's see what I can recall from it. I need to jerk my stagnant brain for a bit. It has been on slacking mode ever since school ended in 2008. LOL. Ok, so...
1) Adam Smith, born 1776 -- founding father of modern economics
2)The previous theories/ideas of classical economists were proven wrong by The Great Depression in around 1929.
3)The Keneysian theory?
4)Monetary policy cannot be used in Singapore -- becos it is ineffective and .... (damn, I forgot the other reason)
5)The theory of the impossible trinity
6)Monetary policy cannot be used hand-in-hand with exchange rate policy
... ... ...
LOL. that's all my brain could give me for now. *gulps* this is scary when I re-read it.
Anw, I was just browsing through Yann Martel's 'Life of Pi' which I was supposed to read fro GP hol hmwk, which I failed to do so, and found this quote, which was kind of thought provoking:
" Life is so beautiful that death has fallen in love with it, a jealous, possessive love that grabs at what it can. But life leaps over oblivion lightly, losing only a thing or two of importance, and gloom is but the passing shadow of a cloud."
It's so beautifully strung together(:
So, well, coming back to reality, I guess I won't be too free to blog so frequently anymore. Probably like twice a month or sthg? lol):
Anw, I love you blog, I really do. LOL.
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Saturday, January 10, 2009
1:16 PM
After All That We've Been Through
*you're just a part of me I can't let go. you're gonna be the lucky one.
I met Nickkie in school today JUST to collect our Literature texts. One bus trip = $0.45. After this year, M's gotta pump in more $$$ since I'd be travelling more (I think). hahah.
Today's kind of a chill out day for me. There's no one at home to disturb me. M's gone to schl to help with Open House, S went to schl too for CCA Fair. Muhahah:x I prolly should have gone for CCA Fair today. I miss my juniors, well, at least some of 'em. But, aiyah, forget it. It should have ended by now I think. oh well. Anw, I was looking through my photos on my trustee comp and I found this:
HAHAHAH! LOL:D Some kind of professor I am. :x the only thing I like about this picture is my hair. Gosh, I miss my longggggggggg hair T.T my damn face is still that fat. humph.
Anw, I can't wait for tonight. There's gonna be a class outing and I hope no one bails too. :x
School's starting in like 2 days?! *gulps* damn it, I'm missing all my holidays already. Am I prepared? I'm so not prepared. x__x
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
11:27 PM
The Merriment of Life
*our days to come is filled with sorrow, but we know we can have them burrowed.
I friggin' started Math tuition like yesterday. Of course, poor me had to take the bus home myself. Anw, I figured a journey the bus takes is like life.
1) the passengers -- they are like the burdens/baggages that we have to carry
2) the stop-look-go signs/traffic lights -- these are obstacles that we have to learn to overcome with patience or they could be barriers to help us pause and think/reflect about what we're doing.
3) the roads -- there are highways and lowways (just like the ups & downs we face)
4) the road expansions -- we're getting more knowledgeble each day
5) the speed at which the bus is going -- life isn't always slow. fast paced; no time to lose
I came up with this while riding the bus back. Quite a dumb analysis of how a mere bus ride can parallel our lives. LOL:x
Anw, I realised that there are lots of weird people living in our midst. *observation made from bus ride. There was like this lady who wore her spaghetti strap so friggin' low and her fats were all like bulging out. gosh, this is mean but, if you're not skinny enough to hide your tummy, don't wear sthg that'll exposed 'em all :s I just can't take it. And, okay, she didn't wear inner wear so boobs were like sagging. LOL. ok, end of story. Moving on... okay, this lady was like stading in front of me & that time was like peak hour, so the bus was quite crammed. Her damn bag kept jabbing into me and she kept clutching it tight, literally. Okay, I don't see any problem with being afraid that her valuables might get stolen, but please, RELAX. pfft. what an enjoyable bus ride? lol:x
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
9:44 PM
It's A Place I Can Call Mine
*can you hear what I hear? it's callin' you my dear. out of reach. it's comin' closer to you.
gosh, my arms hurt from playing 'Capture the Flag' >.<
I happily trodded to school today to help dear Sandy take photos for her dance team. It has been a few weeks since I last touched my camera. Anw, I think I shld save up to get a detachable lens. My zoom and background blur aren't fantastic I must say. When I saw Lou's camera, gosh, mine was no match for that. hahah. Anw, the girls there were pretty 'on' about this mini photoshoot by unprofessionals(at least that's me -.-). hahah. Despite the small small hiccups I faced during that 2 hrs, I kind of enjoyed myself.
ZOMG, TP has e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g I need. Btw, I bought a pair of shoes for only s$9! hahh. the lady discounted me 90 cents! LOL:P Anw, I discovered this supposed 'Hello Kitty' shop inside the bus terminus. zomg, the STICKERS. ahh, so cute so cute. Naturally, I bought some lah. can't resist. The bus was ready, so I hopped into it and went home. Felt groggy along the way, must be the 'not-enough-sleep-ystd' syndrom. LOL.
So another day has gone by just like that. Thankfully I managed to sit down and complete my Econs essay. hurrr, or else, I'd just be procrastinating till Sunday night. LOL! Anw, gotta email dear Sandy before it's too late. Goodday/Goodnight.
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Saturday, January 03, 2009
6:46 PM
No Time To Lose
*Everyday's just like that. Life has its ups and downs. We're becomin' wiser, yet older.
treasured time
lost/found
I spring cleaned my room today. With the generous help of M & D, I threw away a hell lot of rubbish, stuff that were sitting idle in my room, helping me collect dust. Anyway, I don't know what got over me but I screamed at D. I feel so bad about it mann, I just couldn't tolerate what you were doing. Anyhow, I feel so indebted to you for helping me so much. I wanted to say "sorry" but it just couldn't come out from my damn mouth. Moving on, the state of my room/outside my room, gosh, you wouldn't wanna see it. It's like a mini Smoky Mountain or whatever you call it in the Philippines. LOL:x I guess I'll have to bunk in w/ my parents tonight. hahah.
The day before esterday was a fun-fun day!(: We met up w/ our grand-aunties and uncles & cousins & ... Anyway, we went to watch 7 Pounds . OMG, YOU SHOULD WATCH IT!!!(: tho the front part of the movie was a lil' boring, towards the end, zomg, it was so touching. I was feeling so depressed after the movie ended. Sad ending always reaches the nerves in my heart, but I never manged to cry (yet). And besides, the movie ticket cost me a friggin' $10 all becos it was a public hol. oh well, but it was worth my $$$.
Zomg, Cotton On has like 50% off their products. I'm so going there even tho my acc's shrinking like crazy :x
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Friday, January 02, 2009
10:51 PM
Farewell 2008, Hello 2009!
<3<3 <3
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