Saturday, February 28, 2009
6:26 PM
You Give Me Something
*that makes me scared all right. This could be nothing, but I'm willing to give it a try.
currently hooked onto James Morrisson's "You Give Me Something"
love it(:
Trudged to school at 0700hr. Stoned/did some reflection at the gloomy cafe until the rest of the herd came. Alvin was there at like 0630?! hahah. Called in Macs and left college at 1550hr.
Made my lonely way down to chinatown in hope of buying some hair accessories & prolly a cheap but nice dress. Apparently, the damn ATM was in service by those in uniform & I just roamed about for a bit before leaving. oh well, I'll go there again after CTs. which reminds me, I AM SO DAMN DOOMED! x__x.
zomg, D's so lame. asked me why "i'm fallen & i can't get up"; "knee problem?" HAHAH! obviously not D, read it on another level lah!:x
As life progresses, we find that we change. Things change, people change. As we get to know each other more and more, I wonder really if our perspectives will change, since it's commonly said that 'change is constant'. I believe there are certain, but limited things that might not change, for example, love, perhaps? Will there ever be true, innocent love in this world? Will there ever be miracles of love in my lifetime? I can only wonder.
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Thursday, February 26, 2009
5:46 PM
When The Roses Fade
*& all i want to do is to listen.
Currently using dear jac's phone to do some mild blogging.hahah(: she's so cool. Hah!
It's a rainy day today and rainy days affect me MOST! I feel cold,it's not a great feeling, I want something to keep me warm, i left something at home, my jacket. Lol, this is random. I feel sad): my happiness is just a facade? Even i myself don't know.
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
9:48 PM
Tonight I've Fallen & I Can't Get Up
*I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
love FM Static's "Tonight"
can't get enough of it(:
So anw, as life treads on and on, it gets tougher day by day, hour by hour and minute by minute. I wonder how it actually will be after having sat for the Big As and before you know it, you'll be stoning half the time. My mind's in a state where the right things aren't preoccupying my brain's storage space. I'm consumed and well, a lil' overwhelmed by some issues. I just can't get you to see why I am doing everything in whatever fashion I want; it's all because of YOU! But in anycase, I don't know if I should be worried about it at all, whether or not you reply my calls/sms/IM, whatever the case, I don't know if it's important at all. I'm just holding on to hope and trying damn hard to deceive myself. I keep telling myself that my number one priority is to work hard and give my BEST shot during CTs/Mid-Years/Big As, but everytime, you pop up like a daisy in my mind. I can't seem to forget and put you aside during this period. WHYYY?! I don't know how come it's like damn hard for me to get over you and just get my focus right. I don't know why this weird feeling just consumes me and I feel so... I can't describe it. Actually, I don't know how I feel. Indeed, this pain is just too real. Anyhow, I think I should just put the blame on you, you caused me to lose my focus, yet again, this is really really really unfair to you and it pains me to have said it & I'm sorry):
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Saturday, February 21, 2009
9:48 PM
What If I Loved You A Little Less Than Before?
*where lovers entwine in the heat of the night, and by dawn are apart in the shivering silences
Isn't There Something
Isn't there something for you to say
As I walk down the lonely streets and pray
I cry my eyes through the night,
Thinking of you with my might
The morning sun shone through the door
The windows reflected the sun's warm rays.
But I didn't feel that warmth at all
Because I wasn't there at all
My mind drifted to where it wanted to be
Bringing along my body and my soul.
I realised that love was all it took
To make me feel really good
The mysteries of love
I cannot fathom
Treasures, secrets & deeper wisdom
Blinded by my innocent past
How long will this innocent love last?
xoxo
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
A Night Of Life/Love
*one way to fall in love, sixteen ways to make it intense. 'Afterglow'.
Literature Night 2009
-blast
-loved the crew/cast/audience
-enjoyed company
-applauded for dears
-smiled till cheekbones nearly cracked
-teased till my heart's content
-thoughts which were unendless
thanks Juli. for walking all the way with me to the bus stop. love you dear(: enjoyed your company over dinner; & you too Kel. love you. you looked great today. & be paranoid no more. hope you get some rest. if you can't sleep, count sheep to divert your happiness. lol:)
fantastic/awesomeness/lovely
TOMORROW: srjc, xxxxhr - xxxxhr, mug & more mugging.
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
8:04 PM
You & Your White Horse
*I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend.
love Jason Mraz's 'Lucky'
hooked onto Taylor Swift's 'White Horse'
tiring/fun/sweet?
thankfully Lit tests are overrrrr! *phew*
gp compre test on Thursday people!
x__x
Tell me this ain't a fairytale. Tell me you'll be you & your white horse will carry me around. We'll travel far & wide & I won't be alone. I just want to be with you. No matter what, I think you are the one that I have been looking for. I don't know why, I might be wrong. This is a big world.
Is it too late to catch me now? ):
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Saturday, February 14, 2009
5:55 PM
Valentine's 2009(:
*I just want you close, where you can stay forever.
hooked onto Alicia Key's 'No One'
love We The King's "Secret Valentine"
I was so friggin' happy to see D today! hahah(: Missed her truckloads. Anw, met at Kovan ( where all the PL-lites love to congregate), then we went to the library @ Compass Point (and I was hoping not bump into Mr. A there :x) hahah. Anw, had a great deal of fun with her! Always & forever!(:
Anw, went to the hairdresser's to cut my fringe. the same hairdresser I accompanied Kel to!(:
The Result:
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this was like immediately after the cut! LOL:x
Goodness me, I wonder what people will think when they see me in this state. Even I myself don't know whether I made the right decision ): dear me.
to the whole wide world: happy valentine's 2009 with lots of cheer!
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Friday, February 13, 2009
7:11 PM
Please Don't Throw That Away
*Was it built to last? How long will it take for me to know?
today=pre-valentine's day 2009 & also Friday the 13th! x_-
it was great!!(: I finished my job as Valentine's Santa just before econs class started. hahah!
Mdm S was like so annoyed that we left her out of our gift giving. hahah. hilariously dramatic. Spent some time waiting with J at the LT for the J1s to get their lect bks and move away from Uncle Henry's so that I could use the photocopier. LOL. These kiddos....*sigh* please stop colonising our spaces, thank you. Anw, school was not that bad afterall!(:
(my pre-v. day presents from my fab. classmates/friends!(:)
I hope D will be free tomorrow. I hope all her dates can be cancelled & I can spend time on Valentine's with my supposed BFF!(: wheee! can't wait. too bad I don't have somebody special (yet) to spend Valentine's with): oh well, when I grow up... you can complete the story yourself. HAHA:x Anw, it has been quite some time since I met up with her. goodness me. At least I spent 2hr 5min having a heart-to-heart talk with her. Slept at 2 the other day. HAH, but it was worth the while.
It was good time spent I felt. Though it wasn't too long, I kind of know what you're thinking. Perhaps this isn't the right time. Maybe, I'll just have to keep on waiting, for the right time, for the right one. Life is well, just full of suprises. I guess it's better to keep it this way. Or perhaps. Sometimes, I try to restrain myself, I try to suppress my bottled up feelings, this ain't good for my heart yo. LOL. On a more serious note, there's really so many things I can imagine. Maybe you told me you weren't interested yet, maybe you implied that this isn't the right time. Maybe, I could go on, forever. If I were to have someone write an autobiography of me, I don't know if this side of me would ever be published. I wonder if things would be different if I told you I liked you, not becos of material things, but becos of who you are. I really want to see that immediate reaction. But I ain't have that courage to speak up.
well, so long, farewell.
Have an awesome weekend k?
(:
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
7:03 PM
My Heart Says A Dream's A Dream Away
*Then I saw you from the corner of my eye, and it hit me like a top and I can't lie.
love FM Static's "Moment of Truth"
hooked onto it <3
past two days, Juli. & I had the sun kissed us on our skin. zomgggg. But it was great fun leading in the tug-of-war. I regret not taking a photo with Juli. & the darn rope that was oh-so heavy and not to mention, dirty. Btw, I fell to the ground and hurt my tailfeather today. damn it. But overall, it was a pleasant experience(: (of course, Juli. made the best GF partner!) hahah. Tomorow --> back to dreadful & more dreadful classes. ughhh x__x shagged, totally.
here's the forecast for the day: thunder & showers in contrast to morning's bea-u-tiful sunshine & light wind.
goodness, my mood's gonna change, soon. I can so feel it in my bones. heh.
There's so much I have yet to say. I don't want to suffer in silence but, well, I haven't go a choice, have I? You really make my day, just by dropping by each day. I'm thankful I can do something to help, but when's it going to end? Tell me it's not going to end & that you want me to help forever, probably. I guess time would be the best gauge to see if things will work out right. And maybe, just maybe, the glimmer of hope that I cherish, will become something bigger, better, more than what I expect. Life wouldn't always give you the benefit of the doubt. Our lives are not subject to Fate. I believe, really, that our actions shape whatever our future will be, whether academically or personally. So, I guess it's time for action, and actions truly speak louder than mere words.
ciao!
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
Saturday, February 07, 2009
1:27 PM
In A Few More Days
*& I miss you more whenever I think about you.
goodness, love FM Static
School's been really tough on us, mentally and physically. TGITW!!! (thank God it's the weekend)
Can't wait to meet up with the J-Kids!!(: hahah. miss japan so so so much.
"Girls are like phones. We love to be held, talked too but if you press the wrong button you'll be disconnected!"
I must learn to say goodbye to yesterdays. times spent with you are times I treasure.
I'm not sure if what I'm doing is right but it's so much fun.
the week has been full of laughter, madness with econs and lameness.
"let's go on a field trip!"
"to where?"
"the field"
"...to trip".
LOL.
"why are you eating a hotdog with fork & spoon? that's the 1st I've seen"
"... dogs aren't supposed to be hot".
=.=
LOL
"huh? what just happened?"
hahahah. insider's joke.
toodles people. love y'all!(:
cheers&love
<3<3 <3
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this was like immediately after the cut! LOL:x
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