there's nothing better in life than having a packet of peel fresh pink guava juice in one hand & meeting your sister while meowing after a cat! lol.

Anw, school was technically very brief today & I thank God so much that there wasn't any econs tutorial/lect today or i would have killed myself mannxxx. Anw, Suchen Christine Lim came down today for an interesting session with the h2 lit kids. hahahah(: she's so funnily cute! In any case, I came to the conclusion (with al) that actually whatever we're writing for our exams are relevant & appropriate according to the "there are no wrong answers in Lit" theory ( which is totally bull**** by the way) & so why should there be the need for mark schemes & grades?! omg, this is so totally screweddddd. ughhhh.

On a lighter note, tmrw's gonna be fun watching "A Winter's Tale" @ the Esplanade! hah! rest day rest day(: the whole econs CT review just spoils the entire day cos I can't get to do some serious studying before enjoying my evening out):

In any case, today's really brilliant I feel(: there's nothing better than having a packet of pink guava juice while on my way home.

Sometimes we just have to be thick skinned in order to achieve what we desire. Desires are like dreams. They can't be reached for immediately. We can only hope that they'll be fulfilled. You told me today that nothing can ever happen. I've been telling everyone that there's nothing more, we're just friends & it shall remain that way. I guess today I've realised that I have just being suppressing my feelings. And today, you told me that it would be the end of everything beautiful. Nevermind the ugliness of it all, I'm thankful that I still have God, I still have wonderful friends that never fail to make my day. I must have been so blind to fall in too deep. A stupid mistake. Anw, perhaps suppression might just prove to be the solution to the ways I have been feeling. I just want to hang out, get drunk one night & try to forget you & all the things that I have done that you were oblivious to. Anyway, it doesn't matter to you, does it? You don't even notice, so why else should I bother to be sincere? From the start, I should have known it was a one sided affair. I could have saved myself from so much trouble. Trouble that I found which has haunted me the past term. Above all else, matters of the heart no doubt important to me, but it's my studies which take precedence now. You're so not going to affect me in anyway cos I know I'm grounded & I won't waver when the wind blows.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I don't want school to restart! & again, as cliche as it can get, all good things have to come to an end):

I have been overwhelmed with sr olympic stuff & cca programme for wednesday! actually it's not so much about the execution part, rather it's the thinking/planning process that's mentally taxing. zomggg -___- & so, with that, I wasted my weekend not studying. But then again, upon reflection, I'm glad I did something I liked on Saturday night! haha(: pasted photos all over my room! I was jolly glad & stood there admiring my room like it was some castle. Slept @ 3am please. LOL.

Anw, a whole new term is right at our fingertips! 8 more weeks to MYEs): Just friggin' 8 weeks & it'll be June, 5 mths to the big 'A's. scary ehh. But no mountain is too high for me to scale, no valley too deep God cannot help me out. Everything's always possible if you set your mind to it. And note, 'IF'. I'm determined to get back on track this term with my relationship with God & I want it blossom more & more everyday. I want to be more servant-like. Like what Warren Buffet said in his 'Purpose Driven Life' recording, servants practice humility & humility is putting others before themselves. True believers do not feel insecure about themselves, the way they look, & how others look at them. They look toward God & serve Him faithfully to the best of their ability. I want to be like that, I want to be someone who feels secure about my personality and sexuality not because of anything, but really because God is always in my <3.

currently listening to Deepside's "What I Need".

everybody can chop beef, but not everybody can pea(pee) soup. lameness totally mannnxxzz -.-

I was just reading kel's bloggg & she said "Before I go off to study, I ask: Will You Celebrate Life too? (:"

I was just wondering about the ups & downs I've come across, the paths that I've crossed, the, well, mini fronteriers that I've faced. I thank the Lord for His continuous graciousness upon my life & for never leaving me, never leaving my heart when I needed Him the most. I thank my friends, my loves in JC (esp. kel, paula, al, nic & sham) for always being there to listen to my nonsence, to help me out of stupid situations I get myself into, the drama that I've experienced. omgggzzzzxxx, can't thank them enough & I believe that I still have months & probably years ahead to share with them. Yet again, there were times where things, relationships, friendships just seemed so bloody messed up & though it was difficult to let go & move on, it was a great learning experience, a story that became part of me & I narrate it in my mind becos of the strength I derive from it. Anyaway, so much for being thankful for sad moments in life, anw., I'm just grateful for my lucky stars for the luck & joy they've shown into my life despite the busyness of it all, the little joys derived from the small things that I like to do. And even today, I'm really glad that I got a chance to actually sit down witness the glory that SR soccer team brought to the college & the limelight they received either individually or as a team. I'm really happy that I actually felt this sense of pride welling up within me & I my whole being wanted to just give way & my eyes wanted to spurt tears of joy which I naturally held back cos I thought it would be too embarressing to cry in front of so many people. I'm just glad also that I sat down with a close friend & spent time enjoying a soccer match & having a meal. It's simple pleasures such as these which enrich life & make it beautiful. I'm just wondering when we all grow up & be the captains of our own lives, would we still look back at these monochrome memories & relish in the joy that we once led such pretty lives, growing up & learning to be strong with pretty friends? Would we still fork out time to spend with out loved ones, the ones that helped us reach for what we wanted, the ones that gave us strength, courage & support to push us to what we actually want? Would we in the furture wear purple together, go on tea session, reminence the old times & reliving out histories? I guess I'm going to lead my life to the fullest, adopt the habit of celebrating life and as cliche as it can get, spread joy & love into the hearts of many!(: I've got to move on & be who I am.

currently listening to Marc Nelson's 'Forever'(:

After a whole year of missing each other & not being able to see each other, we finally met! love you, cliqueeee(: too sad CY, Santi & CF couldn't make it): effectively it wasn't a whole clique meet-up): Anw, we dined @ Crystal Jade & spent 2h 30mins sitting there TALKING(: that's what I like, catching up & spending time, quality time with my best secondary school mates!(: MRT-ed home & intended to watch 'Stardust' but...too tired & that Victor had to make kel & I go to school the following day for SR Olympics meeting -.- damnnnnxxzzz.

Met kel @ kovan for macs! & then headed for school which was like a few bus stops away -.- anw, thanks to SBS we got there asap!(: lunched @ yoshinoya before heading home(: love kel's company! hahah!(: it's gonna feel odd not seeing her & the rest of the week, oh well.

Math tuition here I come! sheeshzzxxx mannnzzxx):

Although it was a rather subdued bbq (as quoted from al.), I nevertheless had a good time of fellowship with my classmates & friends from neighbouring classes(: I was sad that kel. wanted to leave early but it's good that she have some breathing space for herself(: I hope she's fine. I enjoyed the company of sham & nickkie! hahah, downed a can of Carlsberg & shared the other with nickkie. overall, I just want to thank mag for the hard effort put into organising the bbq! love you MMMM!(:

I wished my doll friend happy birthday! I hope she had a blast that day!(: love you too doll! miss you much!(:

thanks dad for the Welch's Fruit Snacks! Rmb to buy someomore when you come back the next time k? hahah! & thanks for fetching me from all over even when it was raining or else I would have come home drenched! :p

B.O.Y.S = make girls confused children (as quoted from kel). I guess afterall, things aren't complex as it turns out to be. As of 16/03, I aim to be free from the complexities that aren't really complexities after all. I want to just be me, who I really, free from worried & living life to the fullest & burning for God. I gotta start going to church faithfully, I gotta start setting my goals for my exams which I should have set earlier., I gotta start learning how to let go & I'm trying to keep my options opens. I was prolly myopic & foolish to minimise my options. Now that I realised how subdued one could in matters of the heart, I have to learn how to open my eyes wider, see the world in various light before actually deciding which light I should turn on. Relationships I believe are always there right from the beginning. It depends on who gets it first & whether it'll withstand the test of time. Nobody would ever not cross the path of someone who will be your 'missing part'. I'm pretty certain that since Adam & Eve had each other, each one of us will eventually find that so called 'perfect mate'. be patient, don't rush. God makes things beautiful in his time(:

currently listening to Britney Spears "Everytime".

<3

FB Quizzzzesss rockkkkxxxzzz! lol -.-

You are lovely and caring. You help others and spread out a lot of sympathy. Your life aim maybe is to serve the people. But your weakness is that you forget about yourself, your own needs. All your time is hold back for your friends and family. You are always there for people in trouble. Ready for any emergency. You make a lot of sacrifices just to be a good human. But every woman has her needs, her longings and a destiny. Don't loose yourself in work or curing other people's souls. You will have your own problems in your life. Another problem is that you don't say your opinion when it's right and important to say it. People trample onto your soul if you are always so kind and lovely and helpful. They will play on you. Though you should try to relax more and enjoy your life, you should not loose the gift that was given to you to help others . Not everyone is created this way... You are uniqe and rare!

Natural Instinct

tell us the truth... when you were a kid you played the detective game more than anyother games and you were always the detective.whether you are a private investigator or a govt. agent you will be the top of your field...you have a natural instinct which helps you to understand and look at it from a different angle than everyone else.

What Will Happen in 2009?

You're love will come find you!
It may not happen right away but some time through out the year!

*lol*

Common tests tests Common. LOL.

currently hooked onto Coldplay's "Yellow"

<3

Got drenched in the downpour earlier. crapzzzz:/ i think i'm in for a cold! LOL.

It's friggin' 2 days to the CTs!!! rahlalala! Please go muggggg nowwwww!!!:x

Anw, J made me wake up at 0530h to call her & we were both so tired we didn't make it for our morning exercise. hahah! I was in school at like 0700h?! Anw, Mr RA treated us to Canadian pizza! whee!(: & he treated me to M&Ms!!!(: hahahah! a day of treats.

afterall that I've done, I think it's worth the while, every minute, every moment, every second, every cent, every drop of sweat, it was & will be worthwhile (eventually, I hope)!(: it's great, really great! awesomeness I should say.

I Am Just A Little Girl Lost In The Moment
*Life is a maze and love is a riddle.

currently hooked onto Lady Lenka's "The Show"

OMG, S's friend thought I was her mom! zomg, I need to go for a make-over, seriously.