I'm finding myself wallowing in a pit that I dug, maybe for myself. I don't know. I try to find and find, paste my eyeball on the computer screen in search of something potentially beautiful, but I just can't seem to find it. Even if I chanced upon something similar, it's not the same at all, not at all. I guess some things aren't meant for humans to understand, like you know feelings, thought. Sometimes they need no explanation cos you can't simply provide it! It's complicated yet so simple at the same time. In any case, I still leave it to the good old 'if it's meant to be, it's meant to be'. You can't force it to come to you. Sometimes you just got to believe that if you try and you don't get it, just walk away from it cos you don't deserve such an outcome.

to better, lovlier days ahead

& that's what I wanna do too(:

In any case, I feel like life's being pretty plesant ever since the day I reached out & God touched me again(: I pray He'll continue to touch my heart each and every day, till forever. As the day passes by, every minute ticking by, every second flowing by, I guess I'll just enjoy the rest of this warm but beautiful Sunday that I'm able to live in. And as school begins tomorrow, I'm just going to believe that God will be my provider of strength and love, and I'll be able to feel this sense of completeness that I wanna feel. Cheers to the world until the next time we meet, which might be in quite a long while): Anw, <3>

As dreary as the day gets, I'm getting fed up with doing GP essay outlines! :x Anw, 2 more left to go. Mind you, i just had a 4 hour GP lesson earlier! x__x

Anw, I can't wait to meet my secondary school homies! OMG(: I'm kind of disappointed that school ain't closing but it may prove to be good anyhow. At least I know I'm gonna study and not be distracted by the computer. ohh, the evils of technology...

Today, I'm so gonna watch 'The Brink of Law'. It's such a pity Rijin's father's gonna pass away in this episode): & that Jinzhi's so darn evil. A woman + evil = MONSTER:P Anyhow, I find that Jiaer's role in this serial seems to be that of a perpetrator, like that of Lady Macbeth in 'Macbeth'. omg, horrifying O.O Anw, I'm gonna enjoy that in about 4.5 hrs.

School's startin' next week): When I think of it, I feel...dreadful): But we have to always take things positively right? Going to school means meeting my college homies again, classmates, acquaintances, teachers, attending lessons etc. Anyhow, school may not be that bad after all huh. Just that with the H5N1 flu spreading like wildfire, we have to more cautious and observe our hygiene.

So, with cheer and support from God most high, bid farewell to the world until another post(:

Nothing beats waking up early, having to go to school for an hour, and then coming back home, thinking the day has ended, but there's math class in the evening. damnnn:(

Rain clouds, they come and they go. Life's downturns, they come and they go too? Anw, on a lighter note, I'll be meeting my BFF later; not like we're going shoppin' or anything, but yeah, just hang out for a while. Come to think of it, I wonder why exams are so important in life. We usually talk about those hurdles in life and I'm rather certain that these hurdles are our exams we spend approx. 12 years (for JC kiddos) of our precious life doing nothing but study, study, study. Again, stress fumes emits themselves over the years, not only do the examined get stressed, parents of the examined get stressed out too! In any case, I don't actually see the need for exams. I mean if you enjoy studying, then so be it, continue to pursue it. But some may not be exam material, so what? Just go ahead and do what interests you. I believe that hard work and perseverance brings success. But success may not just be confined to academic success yo! Success is really a relative term. You can't help people define success the way you want to. People helm and naivigate their own lives. You can't force or impose your idea of success onto them. It might just impede their capabilities and deny them of tasting their version of victory!

hoping for a better tomorrow

(:(:(: he's so cute k.

For all that's worth, I'm prepared.

Sometimes, I just don't get it. I don't understand the way the world works, how some people live, how others lead their lives. I don't quite understand the dynamics of people's minds, the way we each feel, how love works wonders and how miracles can happen. Not that I don't believe in miracles, I do actually! Just that why isn't it now. Why aren't there miracles in my life? Seemingly so. I guess, perhaps, I'm blind. Maybe my life's a perfect miracle, just that I'm unable to see it. I wonder why.

According to the reowned Forrest Gump, "Life is a box of chocolates, you never know what you're going to get". No doubt life is full of suprises, I'm just thankful it's sweet nevertheless. I once saw a drama serial ( originated from HKG btw) saying that life's like a pendulum, swinging between happiness and tears. I just wish I'm always on the side where happiness prevails, and even if I cry, it'll be tears of joy. (btw, that was what the girl said to the boy she liked :x)

In any case, all these years, I guess I have been living a bitter-sweet life. Now that God's living in me, life is going to get sweeter day by day. I'm just praying that I'll learn how to enjoy life as it is, no matter how tough it gets. Although I can see something lacking in my life, but within, I feel complete. That's the kind of feeling I wanna have everyday.

So now, I guess I'm just going to study really hard and smart,wait for the 'A's to be over, spend time with my family, think about the goodness in life and anticipate the blessings that God will be showering upon me & my family. Relationshippie kind of stuff...nah, not my cup of tea for now. It makes me feel emotional and I'll just start thinking about lots of unimportant issues that are time wasters! As of now, 8 wks to Prelims! I better work for it.

For all that's worth, I'm prepared.

okay, I have officially decided to start a card-making project that I will launch after my 'A' levels. here are some samples that I have tried out:

I'm really excited about it & hope it would be a success! so friends, please help me k!(:

Ahh, can't wait!:D (project launching soon!)

to the success of my card makin' project, 3 cheers!

it's knock out time! but not for me, you'll have to payback big time:P

As depressing as it can get, I'm not going to let the mids bring me down! NEVER! I wanted God to bring me home where I know it'll be safe and pleasant, but NO WAY am I going to take the easy way out. Who said JC was gonna be easy? Who said I would emerge victorious always in terms of results? No one promised me. I can only promise God that I would do my best & today, I'm gonna promise Him that I won't cheat Him & I won't deceive myself further. There's nothing that can stop me now from earning my 90. NOTHING. With God, ALL things are indeed possible. Today, I have received God back into my life!

The journey ahead is tough. Nobody told me it was gonna be easy or pleasant. But I know, only the committed will eventually claim the prize. There is only 4.5 months left & I'm sure miracles will happen in my life. All I have to do is to enjoy revising and studying & trust God for what He's worth!

To clinching of 90 pts in November '09!

omg, I just found out the truckload of June hol homework I need to complete! dammnn iitt!

Anw, KEEP THE END IN MIND(: oh well, just gotta keep looking and moving forward. I'm thankful I have tuition; at least that forces me to study for a bit:/

Anw, 'Much Ado About Nothing' @ Fort Canning yesterday! whippee!(: I wasn't expecting it to be a romantic comedy so I enjoyed quite a bit, & thank you Jac for explaining some parts to enhance my understanding of the play. Yay, another Shakespearean Play down. Now let's see: I've studied Macbeth in Secondary School, watched Julius Caesar in 2006, Studied Othello & King Lear in 2008/9, watched A Winter's Tale in March 09 and Much Ado About Nothing on the last day of May 09. I hope I get the opportunity to watch other plays properly. haha(: By the way, we all saw Nathaniel Ho, Michelle Chia & her husband/boyfriend (his name kind of slipped my mind, sorry abt that), Andrea D' Cruz and Dick Lee! coolios mann!:P 

Okay, now it's time to get to work huh?:/ I'll be having GP class @ 0930h tmrw; I don't know why but I enjoy studying GP. oh wells, gotta figure out how to get my ass back home from Thomson O.O toodles