i was browsing a friend's blog and realized how vivid her life was. like she told 'le monde' what she was doing, how things were with her and her friends. my blog pales in comparison to her. it's as if she has more friends than i do. it's as if she's got a LIFE, and me, what LIFE do i have? it's studying and taking the train to nus and bus-ing back and forth, back and forth. and on weekends when everybody sleeps in, i'm up early at amk,waiting patiently for 138 to send me to mandai for work. it's not that i find it troublesome, it's because i like it. even without a LIFE, i still have a place on weekends where people create messes for me to clear up, where people throw adult tantrums at us, where the smile on the faces of toddlers just make our day! i love my colleagues cos we're crazy and we share the same sentiments generally even if we do not explicitly display them. <3

i'm just wondering the kind of life i'd be living, having such freedom to party out late, having the same number (and assuming same closeness that we share). i'm just thinking if my life's really all too boring and whether i'm taking things too seriously. or am i leading my life the right way? the God-centred way? i'm thinking if my life would be different if someone loved me and spent his nights with me. i'm just thinking if i were close to my friends living overseas, what kind of life would i be living right now? it's the midst of exams and revisions but i can't help but be posed with such seemingly simple, yet unfathomable questions at this instant. it's on the spur of the moment. my future possibilities are never-ending. what tomorrow will bring, what the day after tomorrow will bring, who can say? we can draw up plans but eventually, nobody has the power to take things into his own two hands for there's a higher Being in control of everything. it is thus my prayer that i shall find comfort in the unknown, cos we never know whether it's good/bad, happy/sad. it is also my prayer that He sends an angel into my life to watch over me and accompanies me on the go. it is also my prayer that this angel loves me for who i am and for my love for Him. it is my prayer that my possibilities are infinite and nobody will ever define what I am capable of doing and learning. it is my prayer that hope finds the hopeless. it is my prayer that love finds the unloved and hatred leaves the hurt.

and tomorrow, we shall commemorate Jesus's passing on the cross for our sins. it's somehow inappropriate here to convey religious messages and I shall only thank Him and let Him know that i'll be celebrating Easter when He resurrects! yeeehaawww(: i'mm get some easter eggs/bunnies for my kids at church.