I was looking at our past photos. we had so much fun, laughter and drama, of course. It was one hell of a thrill ride. It was fun. It was cool. And I treasured everything we shared. I thought we were gonna be invincible, inseparable.

But well, God just loves to spring surprises at us. No matter how much we've contributed, this is the reality we humans have got to face. Sometimes, some give more, while others give less. But who is to really say who has given more or given less. I sure am in no position to do so, for each bond that has been constructed, I treasure them all. If it's gonna be a mutual release, why should i continue to grip onto something that ain't hopeful already.

Baking. Cookies. Cupcakes. Bread. Yadayadayada. They are definitely not an indication of my guilt. No. Never. Instead, they represent my love and care for those around me. I want these people to be happy. But many a time, your wants are being overlooked and things cannot always go the way you want them to. That's a fact (too). Gulp it down like a man, even if you're a woman. It's hard to get used to it, to the idea, to the non-presence, but eventually I will.

Someone once told me, "I won't be in your life forever". But i would like to say, even if that person/persons wont be in my life forever, they'll still be kept in my heart, even when i'm dead and gone. You guys are dear to me. The recent spade of events has caused a huge, perhaps devastating eruption to the normality that we once embraced. Everything is changing. Everything has changed. But the fact still remains that we had good times together, only now that the real truth has been unveiled that I finally realized that I was colorblind.