Sometimes we just have to be thick skinned in order to achieve what we desire. Desires are like dreams. They can't be reached for immediately. We can only hope that they'll be fulfilled. You told me today that nothing can ever happen. I've been telling everyone that there's nothing more, we're just friends & it shall remain that way. I guess today I've realised that I have just being suppressing my feelings. And today, you told me that it would be the end of everything beautiful. Nevermind the ugliness of it all, I'm thankful that I still have God, I still have wonderful friends that never fail to make my day. I must have been so blind to fall in too deep. A stupid mistake. Anw, perhaps suppression might just prove to be the solution to the ways I have been feeling. I just want to hang out, get drunk one night & try to forget you & all the things that I have done that you were oblivious to. Anyway, it doesn't matter to you, does it? You don't even notice, so why else should I bother to be sincere? From the start, I should have known it was a one sided affair. I could have saved myself from so much trouble. Trouble that I found which has haunted me the past term. Above all else, matters of the heart no doubt important to me, but it's my studies which take precedence now. You're so not going to affect me in anyway cos I know I'm grounded & I won't waver when the wind blows.